Ok, so seminary is finally done, and im so excited! woohoo! but the one bad thing, is walking to school, im always late, b/c im not willing to get up earlier and walk to school. i know, i know, im lazy. but thats ok, i have a right to be.... (mumble getting up at 5:30 in the morning is NOT EASY) ok ok, so my cousin from Europe is coming today. actually she should already be here, though im at school. she's bringing a friend so thats exciting. and we have a band thingy. woah thats scary,

Last night at work, i was reading my book, and a customer came in(or so i thought) and it was 6:30 on the dot, and i was like hmm its closing time, and this lady was like im here for an interview. i just stared at her with a blank face, i couldnt understand what she was saying, or why if shereally was there for an interview my boss didnt tell me before that. so i was like... oh come on in... lala my boss wasnt there yet, and i had to entertain this lady, and try to make a good impression, which wasnt very easy, then my boss came in and started the interview, but i had to close up, which was really awkward,b/c i was like listening to him grill this lady, and her grill him right back... i dunnow, it was just really awkward, trying hard not to 'overhear' them, lol k then my sister's like i have to leave, and then we went to the movie... star wars, which was scary.... really intense. butinterestnig. i g2gbn/cv i cant type anymore. my hands are killing me. later everyone.

hey everyone how are you all doing.

So the play is over, and nothing's changed at school, ppl are still being stubborn and unforgiving. but does it really matter? not any more. see ya all later

ok so this is for those of you who dont hate me, Nova Scotia was freakin awesome i got the BEST pictures and yea. it was sweet, the scenery was so cool. it actually reminded me of waterton, the roads were so curvy there were no straight roads, and there was a tim hortons on EVERY corner. i actually rode on a ferry, which was so scary. i got so sick, but omg, it was just really cool. we went to green gables and to cavendish beach, where i went into the ocean. it was so pretty.

now i'll tell you about how our band did. ok so, we took 3 actual bands to nova scotia, our concert band, our jazz symphonic, and our jazz combo. and all three got gold awards, and then 3 individuals got awards, Kyle Egeland got a scholarship plus a plaque, and then Ryan McAllister got a plaque, and then Colin McLeod got a scholarship also. we were the only band who got more than 2 awards, the lady who was presenting, was like...."i hate to be repetative.... but... Highwood High... blah blah" it was seriously awesome we kicked ass!!!!!!!!!! when the Jazz band played, in the cafe, they wouldnt let anymore ppl in there, (it was about half the size of center court) b/c it was packed which is kinda weird b/c they had never heard them play, (and our band was the only band the room was packed full for) and after they were finished everyone!! (including the edjudicators) stood up and clapped for about 5 minuits. they were so awesome. clearly the second best band in the festival, the first best one was a band called scotia fusion.they played in the jazz tent, (not the cafe) and everyone thought they were a university group, or an actual band but we looked in the program, and found their name, and found out they were a high school jazz band, they were freakin amazing, they actually had CD's out like in the public, like in local cd stores for ppl to buy.

Omg ok, so i dont know how many of you have heard the song "the devil went down to georgia" but in that song they have amazing reels of the fiddle. ok so think of that song, and think of a fiddle playing reels up and down half that time. and think of actually seeing it live!!!! omg, it was amazing. the lady's name was fluer, and she was a local, she played at one of our concerts in the place we stayed, like at the local high school (northumberland) we also had a bagpipe band thingy, (that band is prestige like... they play for the queen of england once a year) to normally attend a concert like that would usually cost like....say 50-100$ just to go listen, but we played in the same concert, it was just like a normal room like a gym, and the only ppl there were like the families of the band members that were attending. i was like if only i had a video camera to get all this on tape. i cried when i heard that fiddle. you guys it was quality entertainment.

So one thing i have to say about all this fighting and crap going on, i was mad for maybe an hour that day and then i got over it. isnt that what these journals are for? venting? and you guys made it like this huge deal thing, and make me feel like enemy of the state, when for reals, you guys are making it into a way bigger deal than it really is.im not even mad. and yet you guys are bitching at me. oh and another thing, LORA can bitch on her journal ALL THE TIME and noone gets mad at her, or if they do its not that big of a deal, and everyone acts like nothing is wrong at school, i do it ONE TIME, and i DONT even MENTION names and ppl naturally assume things. ok? so ppl who are telling me that im on a high horse when in reality everyone vents and noone calls them a stuck up bitch, but when i do it, everyone all of a sudden hates me. so my thinking is, that everyone has some kind of self consious bitterness either towards me, or towards everyone and i just brought out the worst in some ppl when i said one thing on my mind. honestly im not even mad, but i dont regret what i said. i still think its true.... in GENERAL, its not TOWARDS anyone, its mostly teenagers in general, and i think that ppl need to stop making small things big. and blaming ppl for things that you yourself would have (or ALREADY have) done themselves. ok? so there is my two bits, and if ppl have a problem with that then thats ok. b/c honestly i dont care that ppl are mad at me, b/c there isnt anything else i can do to make ppl hate me more right? so think about why your mad, or offended then decide if your mad at what i said, or if your mad b/c of something else. good day.

I LUV YOU CANDICE!

hey guys.

     i guess im writing in my webjournal this morning b/c i m really bored and tired, and not in the mood to listen to faggot ppl talk about faggot shit. ok im done now. musical theatre is boring but entertaining at the same time. i dont know why, but it just is. i mean, it has its moments. i just cant wait to get away for a week. and not have to deal with shit. with trying to be a teenager at the worst high school ever. with people who are too naive and dumb to care about other people who are supposed to be their friends. oh well, just part of the whole teenager with friends who are bullshitters. who cares? really honestly who does? noone. if you think about it. when ppl talk, its either about themselves, making them really selfish, or others, making them really shallow. i mean, you cant be a normal person. well, you could if you talked about things other than other ppl, and your whole shitty life. which everyone claims to have. oh well, im done with it. it really doesnt matter. nothing matters anymore. i dont think. if it does, then ppl have a hell of a hard  time showing it. oh well. noone wants to hear it, but here i am... saying it. b/c it needs to be said. or maybe i just need to voice my opinion, even if i know that my "friends" are going to be reading it, and they are going to be all pissy with me now, i dont care. fuck everything.

Ok,

So dont you hate it, when you feel that a certain person close to you needs to say something to you, but he/she  afraid to start up stuff again? ....wont?!? and your just like, GAH! say it! But you cant really say anything b/c your afraid to start stuff again? meh, and THEN you want to contact someone and tell them you dont hate them, and that you wish you could erase everything that happened? that you wish everything were different? i think today im frusterated and full of regret. And then there are ppl who just wont leave you alone.... AHHH! what do i do?! i feel there is no one i can tell about anything. noone to rant to. so its all on here. i have a slutty cousin who wants to come here, and who unfortunatly got herself a rep. and now is going after one of my ex's which would be weird. I hate High River, and i want to be graduated NOW! not in a freakin year. i dont know how im going to do it. either with total bitchyness, or with total uneasyness. i mean, all my friends are literally leaving me. and i cant stand my grade, although there is hannah, but... i dont know. there are so many things that....

 Ok, so you know when you think about things that have happened in the past, year or so, and then you wonder, that if you had made different desicions, or chosen different friends, or made different relationships that things would be WAY different. b/c honestly i dont know if im happy. i dont. i know that i have happy days, but im so full of guilt, or remorse, or regret. or something and i feel something big is missing or something. i dont know if im making sense. anyways. bye